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I really don't even know anymore, I just don't. I just want this to finish and end. I probably failed my math class (just barely) which means that I only have 9 hours out of the 12 I need to get TOPS back (I'm on probation or something for that already). My mom is a prime candidate for a heart attack, I probably gained a shit ton of pounds from starving myself at school and then gorging on fatty things to make myself feel better. I’m in the TF2 fandom and I don’t even enjoy rping as Spy anymore, I have five muses and I have no muse for any of them, I have five rp accounts and I don’t rp on any of them. I don’t find enjoyment of this anymore. I’m in college and I’ve already failed a class in my first semester (a year ago), got put in Honors probation a semseter ago and then dropped out of Honors completely, probably failed my math class this semester, I’m not going to graduate in four years because i’m not even getting 12 hours a semester, and I have Spanish and Biology that I haven’t even touched yet (both subjects which are extremely hard for me). Just a few minutes ago I asked my dad to turn a light off and he got mad about something I did and it snowballed and I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’m crying and highly upset; even if I do manage to graduate in under ten years, English majors don’t get jobs, there isn’t anything out there for us. I’m probably going to die in a ditch before I’m thirty and that is what I have to look forward to.
I have work on monday (7 and a half hours!!!!) and wednesday (6 hours), neither of which I am emotionally ready for. I’m short, fat, my parents are old and I’m probably going to lose them within twenty years or so, right when most kids’ parents are just getting into the age my parents are now. I just realized my parents do not care about me at all, they just care about how I look to other people. They are thinking of putting me out, knowing damn well that I have literally no other place to go to. I am highly upset and crying right now and the last thing they are thinking of is comforting me. TL;DR: TF2 is the only thing I have going for me right now, I like working in a team that I’m emotionally connected to because it makes me feel somewhat ok, but other than that I’m just going to die in a ditch one day. I am just done, and I want this to end.
I have work on monday (7 and a half hours!!!!) and wednesday (6 hours), neither of which I am emotionally ready for. I’m short, fat, my parents are old and I’m probably going to lose them within twenty years or so, right when most kids’ parents are just getting into the age my parents are now. I just realized my parents do not care about me at all, they just care about how I look to other people. They are thinking of putting me out, knowing damn well that I have literally no other place to go to. I am highly upset and crying right now and the last thing they are thinking of is comforting me. TL;DR: TF2 is the only thing I have going for me right now, I like working in a team that I’m emotionally connected to because it makes me feel somewhat ok, but other than that I’m just going to die in a ditch one day. I am just done, and I want this to end.
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Darkman
Darkman.
Darkman, darkman, darkman, darkman, darkman, darkman.
I love Darkman, I love the sequels, even that shitty failed tv show pilot (which sucked on all accounts).
I even made a rp blog on tumblr for him, check it out. call-me-darkman.tumblr.com
Aww, yeah, heroes that could easily be villains but they're not cause their hatred is hope for vengeance!
Woooooooooo someone wanna talk about Darkman?
Any typewriter owners out there?
So my parents dug up an old typewriter one of them had, and gave it to me. I'd like to restore it, probably my main project this summer.
If it helps, it's an old SCM Smith-Corona Galaxie II portable typewriter. I think my dad got it in the sixties or something.
The ribbon is dried up and some of the keys stick, but its super easy to get them back down again. That's the only two problems I see right off the bat, but of course it's old and I'm expecting major problems lurking behind the surface; considering this is my first one and it's special to me, I'd like to take good care of it.
Anybody have any tips?
Problems
Ugh, so I /think/, I'm not sure, if I like this girl who goes to my school.
Major internal issues.
Do I tell her? Do I not tell her? What if she doesn't want to be friends anymore? What if she hates me? LOVE ME.
Fuck it.
*busts out in Hellfire*
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HELP?!
Yeah, that GIF I made, I can't get it to repeat and sometimes it goes a little slower than intended but sometimes it plays fine...once, and then never repeats again (Even though I KNOW I set it to loop "forever" in photoshop!) Help please?!
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That's a pretty rough load to deal with 
If with nothing else you have talked about, I can at least relate to stress and anxieties snowballing until you break (and being short, but let's stick with the important stuff). Heck, up until a couple hours ago I was crying because I was worrying so much about some similar things. It's a horrible feeling, I know. I'm sorry about everything going on with your parents and school and just feeling bad all around. No one should have to deal with that much anxiety, and especially not all at once. On another note, regarding there not being any work for English Majors, there are actually some good jobs out there. Working in publishing and copy editing, communications, some types of management, and administration are good to name a few. (And depending on where you work you can get pretty decent insurance). I know that there is probably not a whole lot I can say to really comfort you, but still, I hope you start to feel better and can begin to work through all this mess. 
If with nothing else you have talked about, I can at least relate to stress and anxieties snowballing until you break (and being short, but let's stick with the important stuff). Heck, up until a couple hours ago I was crying because I was worrying so much about some similar things. It's a horrible feeling, I know. I'm sorry about everything going on with your parents and school and just feeling bad all around. No one should have to deal with that much anxiety, and especially not all at once. On another note, regarding there not being any work for English Majors, there are actually some good jobs out there. Working in publishing and copy editing, communications, some types of management, and administration are good to name a few. (And depending on where you work you can get pretty decent insurance). I know that there is probably not a whole lot I can say to really comfort you, but still, I hope you start to feel better and can begin to work through all this mess.